Oh well--another one bites the dust! I started seeing a little spotting Sunday night, had nothing Monday all day and then started spotting again Monday night. When I woke up this morning, Tuesday, I decided to take a pregnancy test just to know for sure. Several people had told me that they had spotting for a few days, but were in fact pregnant. So I took the test, waited 3 minutes and then looked to see 1 line=not pregnant. I let John and know and we are both upset. We know everything comes in God's time, but we just can't understand why it can't happen for us.
I have spent most of the morning crying (sobbing) and trying to get a hold of myself. For those that think it gets easier every month because we should be used to it by now, it doesn't and we aren't! In fact, it seems to get harder each month. I feel like a piece of my heart dies each month of heartbreak! But we will be strong and move on.
I have always been a person that just needs a day to cry and be upset and then the next day I will be able to wake up and be strong and ready to move forward! So today is my day. I know I will cry, be upset, feel hopeless and sorry for myself for today. Tomorrow is a new day and I will be ready to move forward when tomorrow comes. But for today, I'm healing and praying that one day our miracle will come. Thank you to those that are praying with us.
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